of course i love him . he made me stop hating myself , he made me feel better even though i wanted to die . if i didn’t have him , my wrist would be sooo cut up you could see my flesh . i know i still have feelings for my ex , and so does he . but i mean c’mon , he was with her for 2years , and i was ‘with’ him for 8months , of course we’re still going to have little feelings for them. but like they say ‘if you love two people pick the second person , because if you truly loved the first person you would have never fell for the second person .’ i know i still cry when i miss him , but who wouldn’t? i loved him alot. but then i love my current boyfriend alot. but i mean we all have that someone that’s going to take us a little longer to get over. i guess he just might be that one. but at least i still love my current boyfriend alllooootttt.
damn i’m so worthless , and pointless . my life is pointless , my everything is pointless. i wonder why i was even born? i shouldn’t even be alive , everyone would be happier without me . i don’t even know why i try anymore . i don’t know why i smile , when i’m the most saddest person ever. i hate everything , the only thing i care about most might not even be mine anymore. i’m dying inside , i can’t lose him . at least i still have my bestfriend , not my fake 2faced one. my bestfriend who actually cares , and is there for me . i hate my life. :-)
